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SpiritualRoadmapbyGhazali, page : 88
I reflected on this continuously for a time, while the choice still remained open
to me. One day I would form the resolution to quit Baghdad and get rid of these
adverse circumstances; the next day I would abandon my resolution. I put one
foot forward and drew the other back. If in the morning I had a genuine longing to
seek eternal life, by the evening the attack of a whole host of desires had
reduced it to impotence. Worldly desires were striving to keep me by their chains
just where I was, while the voice of faith was calling, `To the road! To the road!
What is left of life is but little and the journey before you is long. All that keeps
you busy, both intellectually and practically, is but hypocrisy and delusion. If you
do not prepare now for eternal life, when will you prepare? If you do not now
sever these attachments, when will you sever them?‟ On hearing that, the
impulse would be stirred and the resolution made to take to flight.
Soon, however, Satan would return. `This is a passing mood‟, he would say;
`do not yield to it, for it will quickly disappear; if you comply with it and leave this
influential position, these comfortable and dignified circumstances where you are
free from troubles and disturbances, this state of safety and security where you
to me. One day I would form the resolution to quit Baghdad and get rid of these
adverse circumstances; the next day I would abandon my resolution. I put one
foot forward and drew the other back. If in the morning I had a genuine longing to
seek eternal life, by the evening the attack of a whole host of desires had
reduced it to impotence. Worldly desires were striving to keep me by their chains
just where I was, while the voice of faith was calling, `To the road! To the road!
What is left of life is but little and the journey before you is long. All that keeps
you busy, both intellectually and practically, is but hypocrisy and delusion. If you
do not prepare now for eternal life, when will you prepare? If you do not now
sever these attachments, when will you sever them?‟ On hearing that, the
impulse would be stirred and the resolution made to take to flight.
Soon, however, Satan would return. `This is a passing mood‟, he would say;
`do not yield to it, for it will quickly disappear; if you comply with it and leave this
influential position, these comfortable and dignified circumstances where you are
free from troubles and disturbances, this state of safety and security where you