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Spiritual_Roadmap_by_Ghazali, page : 97
For nearly six months beginning with Rajab 488 A.H. (⁼July 1095 A.D.), I was continuously tossed
about
between the attractions of worldly desires and the impulses towards eternal life. In that month the
matter
ceased to be one of choice and became one of compulsion. Allah caused my tongue to dry up so that I
was
prevented from lecturing. One particular day I would make an effort to lecture in order to gratify
the hearts of
my following, but my tongue would not utter a single word nor could I accomplish anything at all.
This impediment in my speech produced grief in my heart, and at the same time my power to digest and
assimilate food and drink was impaired; I could hardly swallow or digest a single
mouthful of food. My
powers became so weakened that the doctors gave up all hope of successful treatment.
`This trouble
arises from the heart‟, they said, `and from there it has spread through the constitution; the only
method of
treatment is that the anxiety which has come over the heart should be allayed‟.
about
between the attractions of worldly desires and the impulses towards eternal life. In that month the
matter
ceased to be one of choice and became one of compulsion. Allah caused my tongue to dry up so that I
was
prevented from lecturing. One particular day I would make an effort to lecture in order to gratify
the hearts of
my following, but my tongue would not utter a single word nor could I accomplish anything at all.
This impediment in my speech produced grief in my heart, and at the same time my power to digest and
assimilate food and drink was impaired; I could hardly swallow or digest a single
mouthful of food. My
powers became so weakened that the doctors gave up all hope of successful treatment.
`This trouble
arises from the heart‟, they said, `and from there it has spread through the constitution; the only
method of
treatment is that the anxiety which has come over the heart should be allayed‟.